I’ve talked about mommy guilt in the past. Like the time I lost my cool over a potty accident. Oh and then there was the time that Zach screamed bloody murder in the nursery at The Dailey Method. Well this time, I may have beat out all my other mommy guilt moments with this one.
Remember just a couple of weeks ago when I wrote about the 10 things I did not expect when having a boy? Well the climber, crazy, running everywhere toddler has finally done it. He broke a growth plate in his foot.
Did he do it climbing into the sink? Nope
Did he do it climbing the ladder? Nope
Did he trip over a soccer ball? Nope
Did he trip running to fast somewhere? Nope
He broke it pretending to tap dance. Can you believe that? UGH! I just looked away from him for one second to watch Ellie nail her double pirouette. BAM he’s on the ground crying! I picked him up, tried to console him, and after a few moments I got him to calm down. The only problem he wouldn’t let me put him down. No big deal I thought, he just rolled an ankle, and it’s probably sore.
That night he still refused to put weight on his right foot, so we called a friend who happens to be an orthopedic surgeon. Ice, Motrin, ace bandage and rest. Got it. Poor guy didn’t sleep very well, and this morning he was still in a ton of pain.
Off to the pediatric orthopedist we went. I always assumed that, at some point, one of my kids was going to need a cast. I just didn’t think it would be Zach at 19 months from a dance injury.
Most of the visit was a blur. I spent the whole appointment thinking about what an awful mom I am. How could I let this happen? All I can think is that he jumped and landed it wrong.
What I do know is that he’ll have the cast on for the next 4 weeks. He can start walking on it next week, and we’ll have follow-up visits for the next year to make sure it’s mending correctly. Growth plate injuries are common and serious problems are rare. He should be back to his old self in a couple of months.
The mommy guilt was out in full effect when it was time to pick up Ellie from school. I could feel all the other Mom’s looking at his poor little foot. I could almost hear all the awful things they were thinking about me. I mean why wouldn’t they be? I was thinking them about myself! It was the longest walk through that school I have ever taken. Zach was waving hi to everyone just like he does every day.
I felt completely defeated as I walked back to the car. I just wanted to get home curl up on the couch with the kids and wish the day away. At the exact moment I reach my car a mom stopped to tell me how cute Zach’s cast was. We chatted for a quick moment, and she asked how it happened. I was a little embarrassed to confess to her, but once the words “he broke it dancing” came out of my mouth we both started cracking up. That very moment is something I will always remember. That feeling is something that one day I will make sure to pass to another mom in need. Sometime we just need to laugh at the situation!
I am devastated and feel incredibly guilty about Zach’s injury, but with that said I am incredibly proud him. At the moment he broke his little foot he was living life to the fullest, without any reservation. I hope he continues to live life just like that, even if it means a cast or two.