You know how kids can say embarrassing things in front of other parents. They especially have a knack of saying things in front of parents whom you have just met.
This year Ellie is going to a new school. A new school which is over double the size of her last school. We’ve all been adjusting to the size and new surroundings. I spend mornings smiling politely and making small talk with the other parents as we all try to find our place.
I should mention that I am HORRIBLE at small talk. I practically paralyzed in new social situations. Weird and awful I know.
The other morning was one of those mornings that my anxiety was going through the roof. I walked with my head down hoping no one would strike up conversation. I just wanted to get to Ellie’s class, drop her off and run.
Ellie had other plans. She had been working hard to master the monkey bars and wanted me to see what she had accomplished. I hate letting my anxiety get the best of me when it come to her. I don’t want her to see me like that. So I took a deep breath and told her I was dying to see her on the monkey bars.
We made our way over to the play structure and another mom from her class joined us on the walk. We made the normal small talk. Which wasn’t too bad, until she started talking about the school they use to go to in LA. She told me about all the fabulous celebrities that went to her daughters school and all the fabulous things they would donate for the school fundraisers. She then asked me how we raise money here with out all the celebrities to donate their fabulous items.
I could feel myself sinking inward. It was like someone was holding earmuffs over my ears. I’m not sure why this conversation sent me on a downward spiral.
What was she talking about? Celebrities? How does our public school stay open without them? What?
It’s weird things that set me off. I just felt the need to run and get out of this situation. Thankfully I had a legitimate reason to rush off. I had a meeting. Time to go!
I called Ellie over to say goodbye. The goodbye whet something like this…
Me – Ellie, Mommy has to go now. I have a meeting. I love you have a good day!
Ellie – You have a meeting? Is it about that TV Show?
Why did she say that? I felt the need to cut her off quickly
Me – Yes honey, I’ll see you after school.
Ellie – Are you going to be one TV again?
I can feel myself turning bright red.
Me – Um no honey.
Ellie – Cause I see you on TV all the time.
Why is she saying this? I do a morning news segment maybe twice a year. I feel the other Mom staring at me trying to figure out if she knows me. I had to get out of there.
Me – Ok Ellie, I have to go. I love you.
I say goodbye to the other Mom who stares at me and lifts her hand as a goodbye gesture.
Dear School Mom,
I am not a celebrity regardless of what my daughter would have you believe.