Why can’t I just sit back and enjoy today at home? Why do I feel the need to get out and do something, anything more enjoyable than staying here today?
I look around and see 100 projects I could be working on, but none of them interest me right now. Lil L would be completely content to just stay home today and play, but why can’t I? Why am I getting more irritated the more I think about it?
We’ve been gone for 2 weeks, we have company coming on Wednesday, we’re going to Disneyland next Friday, and then we fly out the next week for 2 more weeks. I need to stay home and do laundry, clean up, organize paper work, work on a few projects for Rock On Mommies and get readyso that I can enjoy the next month!
The thought of all that is just making me even more irriated!! I’m so hating myself right now!! I’m totally irratated with everything! Lil L is driving me nuts and she’s not even doing anything out of the normal! I’ve totally snapped at her for nothing! ARGH!!!! She just ran up to me to give me a hug, and tell me I’m the “bestest” and please don’t be mad at me. I’m horrible!
All I want to do is go somewhere and enjoy the day. Have a drink, watch the waves, go for a walk around La Jolla or just about anything other than staying here!! Now that I think about it, I don’t think I even have any clean clothes to wear out. ARGH!!!
What is my deal? Why am I in such a funk? Rock On Daddy is out surfing right now and I know when he gets back he’s going to annoy me even more! He’s going to want to work on “his” projects. He has every right, we have been gone for the last 2 weeks, but I know that one of these projects is going to involve my partispation in something I really want no part of!!!
It’s only 9 in the morning and I’ve already had it with this day! ARGH! FINE! I’LL GO DO THE LAUNDRY!