Ellie first day of Pre School is already here! I can’t believe it, 2 1/2 years old and I’m already shipping her off to Pre School! We have our backpack, water bottles, lunch box, lunch, inexpensive school clothes, forms, doctors ok, immunization records, and everything else you need to attend Pre School. Of course Ellie is super excited, and so am I. I guess.
I have been looking forward to this day for a couple of months now, but now that the house is quiet I’m wondering if I should have waited another month or so. It’s just me here. I can watch whatever I want on TV. I can go potty all by myself. I can take shower by myself. I can read a book without being interrupted. I can get on the computer without Ellie sitting on my lap. I can talk on the phone with out Ellie yelling “I want to talk!” Maybe the house to quiet now.
I know that she’s only in school until 12, but then she’ll come home and take a nap from 1 until 4 or so. When will I actually spend time with her?
I’ve been looking forward to this time. Imagining everything I’d do with my free time. Put for effort into Rock On Mommies, I’d get in kick ass shape, I’d get a great tan, read more books, maybe even go back to school and learn Flash. The problem is, I already miss her.
I’m excited for her to make new friends, but aside from 3 or 4 little girls she plays with, I’ve been her best friend. Is this when she stops thinking of me as one of her friends and now I just become Mommy? Is this when she starts to ask me to invite other kids over for play dates? Is she going to stop wanting to do Mommy and Ellie things?
My husband and I both took her to school today. When it was time to take her to her class, she gave us a quick good-bye and was off. After I realized that she’d need a lunch (who knew 1/2 days eat lunch at school) I ran out and bought her a new lunch box and lunch. When I ran it back into her she was already in circle time and didn’t even look my direction. The teacher asked for song suggestions and of course Ellie is the first to speak out. “How about the ABC song!” I stood in the doorway and watched the class for a minute. Just a minute and then walked, by myself, to my car and drove home. No one in the back seat asking “What this song?”, “Can I play with your iPhone Mommy?”, “Where we going?” Aside from the music, and phone call with Danielle (thank you Danielle!) it was a very quiet drive home.
I’m embarrassed to admit, but I’m counting down the minutes until I can go pick her up again.